that is that & this is this

FICKR!!!

2009-11-10T02:08:16Z

Added photos from our Reno/California camping trip in August to my flickr. go check em out :) :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/tarawr/

HI I'M VERY BORED

2009-04-08T04:53:40Z

today i picked up 3 rolls of 120 film that i dropped off at ritz camera.
14 business days is how long it took to get this developed, btw.
i paid 131$.

i've since learned that sahara camera didn't close, they just moved.
so, uh, fuck you ritz camera.

i can't believe how expensive that was!!! ughghgh. it was more expensive then developing all of mine & bob's rolls of film from portland. which was 17 rolls of 35 film & like 4 rolls of 120 film. UH! what.
how does that happen.

fuckers!!!!!

tarawr @ 2009-04-04T13:23:00

2009-04-04T20:27:18Z

yuma was hella fun. fun drive, fun people.

yesterday was fucking lame. threw up at work 3 times, was able to leave at 2. walked to my car, threw up before i started driving, threw up while driving, threw up when i got home. i threw up like every 20 minutes for like 8 hours straight. it was amazing. bobby is amazing and he got me a slurpee and crackers and took care of me. love love. throwing up slurpee is always amazing.

today i called into work :( but i'm feeling a lot better. still very weak but i haven't thrown up at all.

tarawr @ 2009-03-30T10:36:00

2009-03-30T17:42:38Z

i hate days off alone.

my grandparents & cousin are in town. it's very nice! i'm sitting at my apartment, though. i'll probably go over to my house around 2. then, tuesday night we are all leaving for yuma. exciting. i'm excited to get out of vegas for a bit. i haven't had any extra days off from work since OCTOBER. christ. it kind of really sucks that i won't be getting paid for 2 days. but oh well.

can't forget to drop off rent before we leave. that would suck. haha.

we might have a roommate soon. more likely then not. one of my old coworkers is coming back to vegas & joining us back at the ticket office ( we're hiring 4 people because we had 3 quit in one week! ). she is going to need a place to stay for a bit. not sure how long, but it will be fun!

our lease is up in august and no matter what bobby & i are just going to move back in with our families. my mom said she got a job offer to be a nurse in yuma. she is still deciding whether or not she will take it. if she does, bobby & i will be living in my house. if she doesn't, bobby & i are going to buy a house. i kind of want the latter because 8000$ next year if we buy a house this year. plus! a cute house that i will love. my house is so familiar and bleh. it's huge but needs a lot of work. plus roaches - ew.

i really, really want a house. i look at realtor.com every day. haha. i'm excited to get out of this apartment & stop paying so much for rent. ugh. just not excited to move everything out again.

tarawr @ 2009-03-16T15:47:00

2009-03-16T22:48:10Z

what i did today:
listening to music/browsed the internet
smoked
ate cereal
cleaned a bit
took a shower
drank water ( all out of soda and i have a major headache. haha )

boring boring. bobby said he should be able to get out around 4.

tarawr @ 2009-03-16T12:16:00

2009-03-16T19:18:06Z

i am seriously BORED today! not that i don't have things to do just no fun things.

bobby has to work until 6 but he might get off early.

i think i might put on one of the records that guy gave us and start cleaning.

and i super totally completely love love love love modest mouse. no joke!!

and i'm also super totally completely excited for the new metric album to come out!!

he will ruin you.

2009-03-14T13:25:30Z

jon stewart is my hero!

tarawr @ 2009-03-04T01:31:00

2009-03-04T09:32:59Z

the hours of operation were changed my work work from 9-5 to 10-6.
so my new schedule is 9:30 - 5:30! how exciting, that half hour. i'm using that as an excuse to stay up later then usual... even though i had a bad dream about being late to work the other night.

i'm going to be 21 soon.
weird.

sometimes i wonder why i'm so different from everyone i know.

tarawr @ 2009-03-01T23:06:00

2009-03-02T07:05:25Z

bobby and i watched miracle at st anna.

what an incredible movie!

apartment kids are weird

2009-02-23T04:13:10Z

outside my door i hear a kid talking to his buddies below, "on three ask me why i'm here." they count to three and "why are you there!?" kid outside my door then says "i got up here because i'm a bat."

um??

anyway.

i've been making stickers! this laminator thing bobby got me for christmas is super cool and i can make stickers with it. all i do is print out whatever, stick in the the machine, hand-crank it through and ta-da. except not that quick. because once i crank it through, the paper comes out with a sheet is sandwiched between plasticy stuff and wax-paper. peel off the plasticy stuff, cut out the sticker, and all that's left is peel & stick.

it's pretty amazing & i've been making address labels galore. luv. especially since bobs also bought me photoshop elements!

bobby has a zombie-guitar project which is constantly on his mind. super cute. motherfucker is capable of anything, true story.

things are always cool. work is always good. kids are always loud/weird.

lately,

2009-02-19T02:05:13Z

i've been on such a reading kick. sometime last week bobby & i went to borders. i bought extremely loud & incredibly close because it was 5 dollars. what an adorable book! i love it. i really want to read everything is illuminated because i fucking love the movie. after reading extremely loud, i read rant and snuff the new books from palahniuk. both great books and it looks like another of his is coming out this year! yay.

i bought another book from the store but i can't remember the title at the moment. before i read that, though, i'm going to start sellevision. i really forgot how fun it is to read, haha. i just haven't made any time for reading since i stopped working at the arcade.

i'll probably buy a ton of books when i get paid next week, haha. i'm going to have BANK. i've got about 4 hours of overtime plus 8 hours holiday pay from presidents day. yes!

bobby gets home soon! yes yes yes. we are going to try and get choke from redbox, hopefully they will have it!!!! i really, really want to see the movie.

tarawr @ 2009-01-27T19:50:00

2009-01-28T04:02:43Z

started working on some pages for the collective swapbot zine! i really love putting together zines and i would love to make my own but, really, i'm not creative enough to make one. haha. i can really only make zines when they have some sort of theme :\ oh well.

bobby & i went driving last night.

tarawr @ 2009-01-26T12:41:00

2009-01-26T20:46:10Z

i wish there were more things to do in this city!

i have 93 dollars in my account & i have a list of things i want now, now, now but have to wait.
paying bills is no fun! i hope this check is good, i have debt to pay off. boo.

i want to go check out the new "exhibit" at the bellagio art gallery. WARHOL & LICHTENSTEIN + other people. nat told me i can go & bring one person for free. hoping that is true!

i need to start taking pictures again.

bobby is wonderful.

i'm excited to go to colorado!!!!!!!!

tarawr @ 2009-01-22T19:25:00

2009-01-23T03:31:35Z

i want travel ! looking through my flickr, it reminds me of how i barely ever get to go anywhere now. hopefully, me, bobby, & my family will be going to colorado at the end of may. i am super excited to go, i can't even remember the last time i went there :( plus, i'll be able to show bobby how amazing it is. and i will go gambling in cripple creek because i will be 21! i don't think i could ever gamble in las vegas, haha. cripple creek is a super cute town, too. ugh. i really hope we get to go & i wish may could get here faster!

tarawr @ 2009-01-22T18:48:00

2009-01-23T02:49:47Z

i really love netflix. love, love, love.

last night my brother came over to keep me company while bobby was at work. troy ended up staying until about 2 in the morning! we (bobby, me, troy) ordered food, watched mr. brooks, and had fun conversations. it was fun but waking up this morning was not! i didn't get up until 15 minutes before i had to leave. oops.

tomorrow i go in at 12, though, so i can totally sleep in. it will be nice.

bobby won't be home until midnight or so tonight. i have absolutely no idea what i am going to do for the rest of the night. i'm debating on if i should shower or not. i should but i don't want to. bleh.

i'll probably scan the rest of my postcards so i can finally put them away! that would be great. maybe do the dishes :(

maybe i should change out of my work clothes first ? :)

<3

2009-01-14T04:34:37Z

i just uploaded all the postcards i've received from postcrossing onto flickr. go check it out! i also uploaded them to my postcrossing account :)

i really miss sending mail. i've been so lazy about it lately. i think a lot of it is that i've got so much more to worry about now that i have an apartment and bills to pay! haha. bobby and i finally unpacked all of the boxes that were in our guest room & that cleared up a bunch of space in my brain. i finally have a desk i can sit at and create. all of my mail/craft/etc drawers are organized and everything is in place. it makes me feel a bunch better.

right now, we're listening to wilco on vinyl, bobby is painting, and i'm in the process of organizing all my mail into photo boxes. big lots is an amazing store! they have this beautiful writing desk and i think i'm going to purchase it when i get a chance. i need to get a few more photo boxes to put my zines in.

this apartment is feeling a lot more like home!

we watched wristcutters tonight & i thought it was adorable. i want to read the book now. that's another thing i have not been doing at all anymore - reading! i need to get back into that, as well.

i think i will upload photos of all my postcards.

tarawr @ 2009-01-01T06:28:00

2009-01-01T14:30:28Z

oh look, a new year.

bobby & i went to sleep at 11 last night because we had to wake up at 5! he's at work right now. boo.
i don't have to be at work until 10:30 so i am about to get my nap on. fantastic.

oh, btw, fuck israel!

lately

2008-12-30T19:51:29Z

i've been making wish lists on websites for clothes that i can't afford and jackets that i don't need.

i've been putting off hanging up all of my clothes. as well as cleaning up all the christmas stuff.

thankfully, i have an amazing boyfriend who does all of the dishes, laundry, & puts away our christmas tree. so, in return, i must do some swell things for him. it's almost noon and i haven't gotten much done. i organized all of our clean clothes but that's about it.

to do:
dishes
clean up guest bedroom and both bathrooms
bake brownies
make juice
hang up clothes!!! ( i think i need a million +1 hangers for this )

tarawr @ 2008-12-21T14:23:00

2008-12-21T22:23:00Z

i'm not happy

SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW

2008-12-18T01:39:54Z

i honestly do not think i've seen this much snow in my whole 20 years of living in las vegas. it's absolutely insane. it has been snowing for about 4 hours straight now. to most people, that probably seems like nothing. but this is LAS VEGAS! i don't remember the last time it snowed just a little!
not only that but the snow is actually sticking! it knocked down this pitiful tree outside out apartment :( the tree was already leaning and now it's to the ground. haha.

i'm so excited. today was the first time i drove in the snow! it took me 2 hours to get home :( :( i picked bobby up from work and it took me an hour to get there from my job (usually it takes like 15 minutes!)

today, natalee and i went across the street to caesars palace on our lunch break. we sat at a small table outside, smoking cigarettes, and appreciating the gloomy weather. it was such a nice change.

so, even though i'm completely excited for the snow... i really hope it clears up tomorrow because i do not want to drive in it again! it's scary, haha. plus it would take forever to get to work.

what a wonderful day!

the pitiful tree:

tarawr @ 2008-11-30T20:30:00

2008-12-01T04:32:00Z

i guess picking up the phone & dialing a number isn't so hard at all.
i don't know why my heart starts to beat so fast when it rings and rings. i don't know why i get so nervous.
maybe it's because i don't think whoever i'm calling really wants to talk to me.
or maybe it's because i know i don't have anything to say and it's going to end up awkward

in the end, i don't really care about that stuff anymore. it felt good to call someone, even though they didn't answer. it means that i actually took the effort this time & not just to make plans.

torn

2008-11-06T06:42:47Z

i can't be happy about a president who supports the patriot act, the bailout, israel, and "affordable" healthcare.

i can be happy that so many people turned up to vote. i can only think of a few reasons: obama is black - so many people voted so he would or would not become president, everyone is tired of republicans, and everyone is tired of bush.

i hear people say "i only voted for obama so bush twin wouldn't get into office" and my stomach turns. talk about a wasted vote.

i want people to feel something, to stand up for something, to be passionate about something. but that something can't be just a word that, in the end, does not mean anything.

what is change if the only difference i can find between the two major candidates is abortion & gay marriage? what is change if our new president accepts corporate funds just like all the others before him? how can i find hope in a human being who doesn't stand up for my rights as a worker & consumer?

why do people not want anything better? how can you not see this man for what he is? is skin color that big of a blinder? i thought we have come a lot farther then judging a person by the color of his skin.

tarawr @ 2008-11-04T10:08:00

2008-11-04T18:10:05Z

Somewhere between prayer and revolution
Between Jesus and Huey P. Newton
That's where you find Johnny Five Shoot shootin
Water guns at the audience while you’re scootin'
Your gluteus max due to the fact that I'm tootin'
On the horn gonna warn you that I'm rootin'
For the other team in the culture wars
So I stab the beast belly as the vulture snores
YO JOE!
Let it blow with convulsive force
‘Til walls fall off their false supports
‘Til Jericho's aircraft carriers alter course
And all brave young Americans are called ashore
Cause we've already lost the war they keep wagin’
Splattering the streets in battles that keep ragin’
Bloodyin’ each page of the story that we're studyin’
Each day the same just the names keep changin’

Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don't know where we've been
We've been all over the globe on our government's funds
Leavin’ man, woman, and child dead bloody and numb
Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don't know where we've been
We've been overthrowing leaders with legitimate views
Democratically elected but we didn't approve....

How many times can the line divide
How many wars to uphold your pride
These fears uncontrolled just swoll the tide
Of blood in the streets while the people die
I'ma keep on tryin’
Longs as suffering's multiplyin’
And why not
These souls get tossed and left out to rot
My backs broad enough to help left your cross
As long as you help with mine
The process of healing will take some time
To see the pain in your face is the same as mine
It's not a game or a race but the stake is high
We maintain our mistakes for the sake of sides
As long as it takes I’ll say it one more time
As long as it takes I'll say it one more time
As long as it takes I'll say it one more time

Same thing
U.S. is not us
Same thing
And us is not we
Same thing
And we are not satisfied
Same thing
We’re tired of the same thing
Same thing
And we’re ready to make change
Same thing
Are we ready to make change?

We need money for healthcare and public welfare
Free Mumia and Leonard Peltier
Human needs, not corporate greed
Drop the debt and legalize weed
We say 'yes' to grassroots organization
'No' to neoliberal globalization
Bring the troops back to the USA
And shut down Guantanamo Bay

Who let ‘em overthrow Jacobo Arbenz
Who let ‘em overthrow Mohammad Mosaddeq
Who let ‘em assassinate Salvador Allende
I didn't let ‘em but they did it anyway
Who let ‘em overthrow Kwame Nkrumah
Who let ‘em overthrow Aristide
Who let ‘em assassinate Oscar Romero
I didn't let ‘em but they did indeed!

Don't let them assassinate Hugo Chavez
Don't let them assassinate Evo Morales
And bring back Martin, Malcolm, Medgar,
Hampton, Schwerner, Goodman, Chaney

tarawr @ 2008-11-01T20:49:00

2008-11-02T03:57:22Z

i'm pretttty excited for the faint concert tomorrow. fun times to be had.

almost forgot to pay the rent today, that would've sucked big blue balls.

bobby and i are going to look into buying a house soon. god how creepy is that to say. well, i guess it all depends on if we can get approved for a loan or not. i'm going to go with not.

i love how the noisiest apartment in our complex is the apartment of the manager of this complex. some kid who lives there plays guitar on the balcony often and i could care less, i like it a lot, but it makes me sad because if my boyfriend were to do that i know we would get many noise complaints. right now they are screaming, clapping, etc. it's just so unfair & annoying. i do not care one bit about the noise but the unfairness of it all! boo.

tarawr @ 2008-10-23T20:29:00

2008-10-24T03:29:52Z

blah blah blah bllllllllllllah.

i'm tired.