ahh. youtube wouldn't let me upload any videos, photobucket's tag didn't work. so i resort to google video. i apologize.
this is the first super 8mm movie i've ever seen. and i'm in love. :)

ughh. i am thinking about starting to write my research paper. i just can't.
ahhh i suck so hard at writing. i can't think of any way to actually start the damn thing. i know what i want to write about and everything... just putting it into words proves to be impossible.

ew i hate writing papers. :( i want minion to do all of my work for me. haha

basically i'm in love with the commnist manifesto. basically. i started reading it again today because i'm looking for inspiration on my sociology paper about social class issues. and karl marx is a motherfucking genius. yep.

uh. i just remembered that i need to type a paper for english tonight. eep. i only have 30 min and i still need to get ready :\
i'm dumb.

well i guess i should go do that.

so basically i'm dying.

i went to fucking vegoose yesterday and it sucked. oh god it was fucking horrible! we didn't even stay for tom petty because he was playing at 9:45PM. saw the raconteurs and left when bobby pointed out that they had jack white's guitar turned off except for his solos. so that was lame. then we waited for mars volta to play and when they played, the vocals were turned down and you couldn't hear the guy singing so we left and went to the medical tent because i was DYING. i couldn't breathe. the medic people gave me a breathing treatment and we left. i think i'm like allergic to pot. but there was so much pot & cigarette smoke and it sucked. i felt like shit.
i'm staying home from work today because i still feel like shit. it hurts to breathe in too deep and my nose is stuffy and i have a headache.

and i hate vegoose.

i've been trying to convince bobby into going trick or treating with me. he says he doesn't want to, but he will. i'm not too sure what to dress up as, though. but i really, really want to go trick or treating. i want candy!

jeri is supposed to call me tonight. she called me at 2 in the morning, apologizing for not calling me um... last week? because we were supposed to go to fright dome last sunday. but she didn't call. and i doubt she'll call tonight. but whatever.

boo boo boo.
what can i be for halloween???

the weather has been amazing! my brother woke me up at 6:30AM because it was raining so hard. we went outside and skipped rocks in this huge puddle outside of my house



so i've been up since 6 and i organized all my negatives. i am going to start organizing my school work soon.

and now i'm going to eat cereal!!!

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today is now my friday :)
life is good!

i had a math test tonight. so i got out of class early. waiting for bobby to call once he gets out of his meeting.
last night i skipped english and went with bobby to one of his friend's birthday party. it was pretty fun. i'm too shy though.

tomorrow i get paid. thank god. i need to clean so so so so so so bad. it will be nice to have friday off, gives me more time to get organized instead of hanging out with bobby all weekend.

i'm so excited for the time change. and the weather is beautiful right now!

boogity boogity boo.
i have no friends because i suck at being a friend. and when i try to call people who i like to call my friends, they end up never calling me back when they say they will. maybe it's just that all the flaky people live in las vegas. maybe.

going to "college" sucks. not really. i'm just way too anti-social for that crap. and overhearing what kids in my class talk about make me feel like i'm in 6th grade. and the fact that they cannot shut up for a few seconds so the teacher can talk makes me angry.

tonight i got out of class 20 minutes after being there because we were working on what i had already finished last week. big points to my job for being the most boring job out there.

i hate worrying about money. :(

last night bobby and i celebrated our one year. we went out to denny's. haha <3 we were going to try and find a "classy" place to eat but classy places are hard to find, expensive, and usually have nothing we can eat.
bobby bought me a beautiul ring. it's amammamamazing. i've never had any kind of fancy jewelry. it's a little too big though so we're going to get it resized sooon. because i don't want to lose it!!!!
last night was really nice. today i really need to clean and do laundry and put my check in the bank. blah blah blah.

well. today i bought a linksys wireless router so i can use my sweet little ibook. pretty much almost the love of my life. schweet.

umm... i have been watching the steve irwin tribute on animal planet pretty much all day. it's sad! i can't believe he died :( i feel hella bad for his kids/wife. sad sad.

school is going great. it's kind of weird but pretty awesome to be back in school. i feel hella stupid for not getting into unlv though. it sucks but not that bad, because i'm going to get my associates at ccsn and probably go to nevada state college for my bachelors because it's cheaper. because i most definitely do not want to pay fucking 1500 dollars a semester +books. that is just insane! i have english tomorrow night and i think this wednesday we have our reflective essay draft due. but i haven't even really decided what i'm going to write about. the teacher is all over the place and she hasn't told us how long it needs to be or any of the specifics and it pisses me off.

the week before last, i had to spend 570 dollars to replace the clutch in my car :( it fucking sucked. my car just like slowly died... one day, it was losing hella power and i had to like red line it to go and then by the end of the week, i was driving home from school, red lining, and barely getting past 35mph. i was so scared i wasn't going to make it home. like, you could put my car in first gear and let off the clutch and it would just sit there idling like no ones business. once i got home that night, it wouldn't even move foward. but all is well now.

well... me & bobby's one year is coming up (october 1!) and it's going to be exciting. it's pretty weird, when i think about it, that we've been together this long. and it's especially weird to think about how it all started. and even more weird when i read things where i'm being emo and saying i'll never have a boyfriend. but i've lucked out and got the most amazing boyfriend on my first try. haha. it's amazing because i know (as long as the butt doesn't cheat, rape, or kill me) we are going to be together for.ev.er. i love this boy more than anything and it's fucking amazing to know he feels the same.


i'm pretty bored. and halloween is comiing up!!! i'm so excited. i'm trying to talk bobby into going trick or treating with me. and maybe, just maybe, i can talk him into going to haunted houses with me. i'm probably going to call jeri to go to fright dome with and that will be really fun.
the weather is so nice now! it's still really sunny, but it's nice and cool air. i can't wait until it starts getting colder. maybe it will snow this year. i doubt it. but i wish!

blah blah blah.
i've been working way to much lately and it sucks!
mikel & angelo got fired for some bulllllshit so i have been working double shifts last week & this week monday and tuesday. and i had to work on one of my days off last week. it sucked but it's all over now. i told my manager that i can't work doubles this next monday tuesday because i don't want to be stressed out before i start school. which is in less than 2 weeks :(

i have so much to do! but i'm sitting writing in here. lame.

i have no lifeeeeeeeeeeee.

i signed up for classes. ccsn. unlv doesn't want me :(
because i got a 310 on my math sat. hahahahahahaha. i suck.

anyway.
i'll be going to school everyday of the week except sat/sun and all night classes cause i'll still be working (but doing school work at work!) how much better does it get.
i'm excited. but scared cause i don't do well in situations where I DON'T KNOW ANYONE!!!!!!!!!

ummm. yeah.
:) :) :) :) :)

So I've been back from Oregon since Saturday.

Had a BLAST. Good god, it is so fucking beautiful there!! So many trees, it's amazing. Bobby and I took 17 rolls of pictures together and I took, I think, 4 rolls of 120 film that I haven't got developed yet. :\ Only cause I have to go to an actual photo place because it's 120. dur dur.

Things are amazing. Tomorrow is my FRIDAY. Thank god. Saturday I have to take SATs :( :( :( :( :(

Just chillin, you know.

I deleted the last entry I made.

But, in it I wrote that I sent a letter to my dad.

He wrote back. And he seems happy to hear from me.

wow.

oh oh oh!
cake and tegan & sara in 2 days!!
bobby and i are going together and it is going to be really nice. i'll see brytani and ange and all them there most likely. and that will be fun also!

jeri and i have been playing phone tag for the past couple of weeks. every time we ALMOST hang out and then she says she can't. lame lame. one day, though.

and i'm probably going to coachella this year. if there is a good lineup. which they still haven't annouced !